I am typing this out on my phone, so sorry in advance for any typos. I contemplated not posting anything and just taking the blog down but decided I needed to at least say something as I have a lot of online scrapbooking friends who have been very loyal to me over the years. I had to at least say bye.
My heart just isn't into this anymore. I will always create. Its a part of who I am. But I just can't blog anymore. Everytime I sit down to write a post, I have no words.
You see, things in my life just aren't right now. And wont be until I make it to Chicago. And I am tired of coming here and pretending things are right. I just can't be fake. It's not in me. There are pieces and parts of me that are broken. I have never pretended to be a perfect person or to lead a perfect life. I have stumbled, faltered and fallen along my path. And continue to do so every single day. Thats life. I have made some pretty bad decisions and am no victim. Accepting responsibility for my life and its direction is vital to me right now. Moving forward on a path of healing and making the changes necessary to reach my goal are my priorities right now. I know all of this is very vague. The things going on in my life are very private. And I don't feel the need to elaborate any more. I just need to say that I have things in my life I need to fix. And I wont be whole or right again until i do. No more pretending. Done with that.
Maybe one day I will blog again. Chicago. That's all i can think. Its what I dream of. What I breathe. What I cry for each and every day. I am letting go of mistakes made, forgiving myself, and moving forward. And if and when I do blog again it will be from the windy city. Hopefully deliriously happy and finally at peace with myself and my life. Until then....I wish you all nothing but peace and happiness! You can email me ya know! [email protected]
Love to you all! Blog will disintegrate in a few days. LOL.
Such a sad news... =( I really enjoyed seeing your projects here, they were always so very inspiring!
But of course i understand that this isn't the most important thing in life and wish you all the best! Take care!
Posted by: Veeruliiru | 06/09/2011 at 12:08 AM
Hi Kate. I just wanted to say that I totally understand, and you have to do you. And I hope you make it to Chicago and find that state of perfect peace and joy... because you deserve it. You really do.
Not gonna lie though... I'm gonna miss your blog! lol Please don't stay away too long. Your work (and your words) always inspire me to keep going, moving and trying. So hard sometimes.
Anyway, so so sooo much love to you, and I wish you all the best! :-)
Posted by: Brittany | 06/09/2011 at 12:44 AM
That is what I've always loved about your blog...your honesty. I hope you make it to Chicago soon so you can find your peace and happiness. All the best to you Kate and I hope to stumble across your blog again in the future. :)
Posted by: RachelG | 06/09/2011 at 04:27 AM
blessing and peace to you.
Posted by: erinn | 06/09/2011 at 11:54 AM
Hi Kate,
I check here each day because your authenticity, your words and your art have ALWAYS been a tremendous source of inspiration to me. I will continue to think of you and pray for all the goodness you so deserve. I so hope you will come back to blogging and on-line teaching. Much, much love and prayers for you. Thank you for this last post.
Jen Kolakowski
Posted by: Jennifer Kolakowski | 06/11/2011 at 05:16 AM
Dear Kate,
I have followed your blog for awhile now because I love your spirit, your honesty and your amazing crafting ability. You get my vote for best mini-albums ever! I can relate to what you are saying and really appreciate you loving your readers enough to let us know. I am going to miss you. Take care of yourself and many blessings to you and your family.
Posted by: Lashonda | 06/15/2011 at 12:04 PM
Hi Kate - I am so sorry life is not sparkling for you right now - i used to read your blog a few years ago as well and loved it and you and your kids and your dreams for your mini book kit! I wish you only happiness and peace in your life, please take care of yourself, and thankyou for saying goodbye. hugs from andrea in australia xx
Posted by: andrea | 06/16/2011 at 03:52 AM
Hi, I just wanted to offer best wishes for your future. I pray you find peace and happiness. I'm sorry that things are hard right now. Sometimes a change is just what we need. May it be good for you. I will miss you blogging. Thank you for being a source of inspiration to me. Becca :)
Posted by: Becca | 06/16/2011 at 04:11 AM