scrapbooking and other randomness

i am back again. so soon. i don't know if i can keep up my blogging stamina! lol. but lately i have been in such a creative mood and then i want to share what i make. so as long as the creative streak keeps up i guess you can expect to see me around here a lot. :)

i have had a nice lazy morning. listening to alicia keys on repeat. love that song "a woman's worth". just love it. it kinda inspired one of the layouts i am sharing today. this one.....

the journaling is about learning to love oneself. this is something i have struggled with the past few years. i was carrying around all this guilt over mistakes made in life, had been worn down from the demise of my marriage and what i went through with that....and was just feeling really really down about myself and who i was as a woman. and i started to accept treatment from others that i did not deserve. i stopped standing up for myself and allowed myself to be in an unhealthy relationship. to be walked all over. and it took me a long time, and the help of my therapist to realize it was because i didn't love myself anymore. this saying is oh so true.......

 

it's been a long hard journey getting back to a place of loving myself, who i am, again. and i'm still walking that path. still not completely where i want to be. but at least i am working on myself with an awareness now that i have to figure all this stuff out. these open wounds within myself have to be healed so that i can move on in peace. and having awareness is the first step towards fixing anything in life. you have to be aware there is a problem in the first place and what that problem is before you can do anything about it.

but i am SO thankful i am in a much better place now. things are moving in such a positive direction in my life and even though i still have a lot of work to do, i do love myself again. i had to let go of the past. let go of my mistakes and stop punishing myself for them. learn to stop worrying so much about the future and to enjoy the present moment. and most importantly, i had to learn to forgive myself. and all those who hurt me. 

alrighty then. enough deep stuffs! :) this layout of lily bean makes me SMILE! she's always good for that. i just looooooooooove how it came out.

  

and one for my boys.......

 

well i guess that's it this time around. see you soon! 

peace!
 

Comments

[Brittany]

i so understand what you mean about awareness. i just recently started counseling and for the first time i feel like i have A LOT of clarity about who I am and why I do what I do (especially in the area of relationships). learning to change courses and blaze a better trail for myself (so hard). love seeing your layouts as always and loving this creative streak... hope it rubs off on me!

[Jessi W]

Well, I am glad you are on a creative streak, b/c I love seeing your work. So honest, and real and beautiful!

[donelle]

i just recently found your blog. missed your entries from your "my journey" blog. we have a lot in common and i so relate to what you wrote about today. (except that i'm still in that place of beating myself up for past mistakes and struggling to let go and allow myself to move on). it's a hard road and i'm glad to catch up with you and see that you are in a better place. wishing you happiness.